Look who is 16 months!

I can’t believe my baby girl is 16 months old! Where has the time gone?

My baby is morphing into a toddler. She is still quite the happy baby but now likes to scream. we are trying to teach her to use her “words” instead of screaming but unfortunately I have been a bad influence when it comes to raising my voice. I’m trying to get better but no one is perfect!

She is now climbing stairs and will walk over to the stairs and cry when its time for a nap! Soon enough this little peanut will be putting herself to bed!

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Music that helped me heal

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I wanted to share another song that has helped me get through some very hard times. I’m not feeling well today so this will be brief (it’s also something I don’t care to think about)

On April 22, 2010 we adopted a baby boy. On May 10th, 2010 he was taken back by this birth mother.

InĀ 2011 after a bit of a break we decided to stop trying to adopt (we had a few more failures after that one) and we adopted some embryo’s instead (from a couple that were done growing their family). our first cycle failed but our second worked. My due date was 4/21/2012. In September when I was 8 1/2 weeks pregnant I found out the baby died. We tried again several months later and on 4/23 I had another miscarriage. April of each year has always been very hard for me. Anyhow…

I hit rock bottom after those losses. I wanted to share with you a song that explains exactly how I was feeling. I would listen to this song on repeat at work to help me get through the day. This song really spoke to me. Listen to the words and I think you will understand.

I still listen to it from time to time.

This song also spoke to me during that time as well.